1, yi, un, one.
Yes, today is the last day of 2004, which marks the end of the sad and unplesant but memorable 2004.
This is what i did today:
Had to rush for the PCC presentation and it somekind of goes smoothly, but at the same time, couldnit say that it goes smoothly, cos the slides could not be opened. God, what the heck has happened to TP's lib? And god has been crying for the whole day, mabey for the victims died in the tsunami? Or is it just another day in this monsoon season? And told Lilian that hey rain for the whole day, and better still pour at nite, so there will be no countdown. And her reply: wah lan, so wicked! Haha, mabey feeling unbalanced as no countdown for me? but hey, it might rain anytime. in fact, it was raining 2hrs ago.
finished watching The Hours and of course, went straight to esplanade to borrow dvd. 2 sb classic, some kind of wonderful and rain man. while visiting hmv, pretty surprised to see that they are having $4.95 vcd sale again, with more exciting titles this time! mainly vcd's import from hk, and part of them are uncensored version. Bought Le Triplets De Belleville and most likely buying more tomorrow. Some of the titles on sale included: 5th Element, Legends of the Fall, Identity, Love Actually, Jerry Maguire, Once Upon a Time in Mexico, Cider House Rule, Good Will Hunting, Thomas Crown Affair, Enemy at the Gates, Sleeping With the Enemy, Terminator 1 and 2, Training Day, Once Upon a Time in America (very short version. go for the dvd instead), Goodfellas, Big Fish, There's Something About Mary and more...too many titles to be recorded. going for more tomorrow, and at the same time, getting Shih Han's bdae present,cos i am going to shih han's bdae party before he goes for NS.
Had dinner with mum and mum told me: sis is bringing her boyfriend for dinner on sun. (!) what the......oh my god.djdfheifhaishwuen2ooeujriofhwod'aodsjQAIFDN;WERKNH;SFN;SDCFSD';FNH'nd.....
i dun even know what i'm typing about, cos i can't meet sis's bf, as i am going to shsih han's party. oh everyone is attached, Minghao going for a date, Jer had his sweet time with his gf, how any more attached? i am still single and available. yes, i am left on the shelves and there's an expiry date. When? I don't know.
Or mabey it's time i look back what i've done to prevent making the same old silly mistakes for the upcoming 2005?
Know that i shouldn't throw tantrums at Jer for no reason. no listening to sad fm when i am being placed in a new and raw environment. learn how to make new friends.know how to dress up. know how to socialise. know how to care for others. know how others work extra extra hard to keep up in times, while at the same time know how to slack.know how to watch my diet.learn how to behave myself, and no casual sex. learn how to save $$$ and spend $$$. learn how to enjoy Linkin Park and Nelly. learn how to watch good independent films. learn how unfair and ugly this world could be. learn how beautiful love could be. learn how nice meeting and old friends. learn how to be more independent. learn that there are people who cares for me. know that i am no longer lonely. know how to look for love. learn and know how to fight for my own rights.learn that love is around you and me. learn how to give a hand for the needys.
LoveHateDreamsLifeWorkPlayFriendshipSex
in all, this world is full of unlimited surprises. you will never know what will happen next. take it easy and learn to accept the facts. know that there are people who care and concern you, and show your graditite to them.
my deux duble zero cinq or 2005 resolution: learn my french well, buck up, lose more weight, enjoy life before NS.
et vous?
if u grow up, if i grow up, what would u be? (quoted from the song, If U Grow Up from BNSS's 2000 musical, The Dawn Chorus)
uncertainty is waiting for us. hope that the upcoming 365 days will be brighter and smoother.
to my friends who had show me concern in school and outside school, thank you. for the victim's family member in the tsunami, may god be with u always.
to my dearest jeremy, thanks for always by my side when i am in need.
to ross, pls do not make a sudden surprise again.
to my bro and sis and my grestest who are alwats by my side, thank you for giving me help when i need it.
a present for you below, and a happy 2005. all the best to you for the next 12 mths.
goodnight.
Lost My Faith - Performed by Seal. Taken from his 3rd album, Human Being
We both know
that the harder we try
can't understand it
we're so caught up in the reason why
station to station
and we couldn't even say their names
i've realised it
was just a game
i had lost my faith long ago
i can see
that if i
that if i stay close to to your side
that all of these pressures now
i know theywill subside
you know that if you ever need me
all you gotta do is fall
but i hear you say that
you got it all
i had lost my faith long ago (x2)
a strangers so it seems
i lie here here for your touch
and what i like to know
is why do i want you so much
you say that it's just a game
all through my life
i had waited for you
a-a-and
i need to know now
have you waited, too?
are you feeling what i'm feeling?
hey now
oh oh oh oh oh ah ah ah ahh ahh
bom baa baa baa daah
i had lost my faith long ago (x2)
oh, love
can't help listening to your heart
The End of 2004.
Goodbye, 2004.