Somehow, i just feels that the old feeling is back. The kind of feelings i had when i was in Sec 1 and 2. A sense of loneliness, helplessness and the blues.
This begins with last nite, where i bought a copy of Seal's old album, Human Being from $$$ Converters. It was an album that was released in 98 - the year i entered bedok north and begins my 5 years of education there. I was pretty lost and just feel helpless in school.
Another mood adds in when i was in Sec 3 and 4: shame and jealousy. When Kevin Bacon was interviewed by ST's movie corrospondent Ong Sor Fern on his new film, The Woodsman, Kevin says filming Woodman is tough. This is because going to the same old places to do the filming is just like going to the place of shame - he dreaded of it.
This applys to how i feel when i was in Drama and student council. Sometimes i am really dreaded to go there, but still i make it through, until i was kicked out in Sec 4. Only then, i do not feel much of it.
And how does it related to the album? it brings back the old feelings. Somehow, with the gloomy weather outside, i just feel that it makes me feel much more heavier.